Jackson

Jackson
November 2nd 2009 - February 28th 2010

“No day will ever erase you from the memory of time”

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I need to take 5

I am so mad right now I could spit fire. I would take out an entire village I am steaming so badly. Bad day at work....yes, bad day in life....well when is it not, just wishing I could scream or run away....if I had the money. I just want to sit and relax after working 8 sometimes 9 and soon to be 10 hour days I just want to sit around and veg. I don't want to think about work, or the laundry that needs to be done, or the plants that need watering. What I want to do is think about a happy time in my life. I want to be worrying about stopping Jackson from bouncing his head off the coffee table or sunscreening his little chubby legs. I wish that people would backoff especially my boyfriend. Who by the way had to throw in a comment about nothing getting done....what I did not throw back in his face is that THIS GIRL IS THE ONLY ONE WORKING!!!!!!!!!!! So screw you if I don't do anything as soon as my feet cross through the door. I want my life back, I want my son back and what I don't want is the take s@#t from anyone. Plus I just realized that I missed my mother's meeting this month and I really needed to go this month. Please let me tell you that this is not normal and I normally don't mind being the one to provide for the house because he has done it for me, plus he has been working his butt off around the house as well as working on the car but I just need a little time today...even if its 5 minutes.

4 comments:

  1. You should tell everyone that you need 5 minutes, if they tell you no, tell them to go to hell.
    Love you.

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  2. I am sorry that life is hard for you. I wish you had someone around who could let you have a break from everything. Is there a friend that you can have a sleepover with. I know it sounds so 5 years old but being away from home and being able to talk and hang may be what you need. I hope you find a solution.

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  3. Lindsay - I wish we lived closer as I would be on your doorstep in a heartbeat. If you need time for yourself just tell people to leave you alone and you will let them know when you are recharged and ready to go again.
    Call me anytime day or night. You know the phone is beside me and I wake up very easily. I can sleep anytime so its not a bother. I love you and wish I could help you more. Love you!!!! Mom xoxo

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