November 2nd 2009 - February 28th 2010

“No day will ever erase you from the memory of time”

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Level 2 ultrasound

I met with my secondary midwife the other day for a regular check up. For those of you not familiar with midwifery care you get two midwives. You meet with both of them through out the pregnancy and that way whenever they little one wants to make an appreance you will know both of the women who will be delivering your baby. Anyways after the check up she asked me how I was feeling (and not the normal pregnancy feelings). She said that she knew about my son and wanted to know what happened exactly. So I told her I have my good days and bad. I told her I wasn't anticipating February as it would be two years since Jackson had died. I also told her that I was probably going to be a crazy person when this baby arrived and that rules would be put into place so that people didn't just come over and that knew to stay away if they were sick.

She must have sensed my aniexty and asked if my husband and I wanted to get a level two ultrasound. They would be sending us to Kingston (even though I asked if there was another place close by that we could go). She said they do a much more intense screening and make sure all the baby's systems are working properly. So we go next week for the ultrasound. I have aniexty about it, which is weird considering nothing came up in the first ultrasound but I think it might have a lot to do with going to the same hospital where Jackson died. We haven't been in almost two years so I am not looking forward to going there, but I will do it for the baby. I want to be prepared for anything just in case they do find something.