Wednesday, June 2, 2010
I lied....and I feel guilty
When most people ask if you have children I usually reply yes, but he is no longer with us anymore. Today I went to get a pedicure and the lady asked me oh do you have children. I replied no. I have never replied no. I wanted to jump off the table and run and cry. I felt so guilty for saying no. I felt like the worst mother in the entire world...but I just didn't feel like explaining my life story to someone I didn't even know. Am I a horrible mother? Should I feel guilty? Has anyone else done this just save yourself from reliving the fact that your son died? This isn't fair I should be able to say yes, and he is 7 months old and the love of my life but I can't and now I am just left feeling guilty. I'm so sorry Jackson.